"DRUGS GAVE US WINGS TO FLY BUT TOOK AWAY THE SKY"

So, simple it may sound then but now it contains a great weight in my life. I was flying high in my own imagination enable to see the land slipping by down under my feet. Late I realized and tried to stand up but I fell again and again. I kept in mind it's never late or it's not the end as every end is a new beginning for a new start. i gave a new Start, every end I striked as the good inside me kept on crying to move on to defeat the bad. Now when I look back I realize I would had gone insane and possibility that I could have died doing nothing. I still remember the days when everything inside me craved for drugs.

I needed in my veins, I needed it in my every pain. Later the satisfaction also went on dying. It took away my everything, dear ones, relationships, health, sleep, money, trust and many more. One day good inside me yelled "ENOUGH" and I did hear it cry and kept that word in heart that I will not and can't move ahead like this. Then I promised to self may I not be able to earn happiness but nor I will throw sadness. I was the lesson I learned from time and I know one day the time for me will also come and it will bring back the trust in self and for me. I know I can never forget the pleasure of tripping nor the ritual but neither can I forget the crisis it ran me into. Today when I look back I can't figure out the curves of life on those gone nine years only I know is about the deadly "D" (DRUGS).

Now I realize I have gone nowhere only the time moved on I stopped there still achieving nothing. The pleasure was killing me softly. For few hours sleep I begged or lied. Later the level of tripping went on increasing and the satisfaction was lost. I had a hitting bottom (Despair and Isolation). Where I realized I had lost everything running for the pleasure of self. Most of all I lost happiness. I know it will cost me a lot to regain what I have lost or I mayn't get it back but there is a small Hope and great determination to move on Drug free in life and living just for today. I am making my today best and I know the future will also follow. Today when I look at my life it's full of adventures, adventures to tackle with feelings, craving, obsession and more it gives the ability to fight with the addiction-Disease I have in me.
 
"TODAY I MAYN'T BE THE ONE I WISHED TO BE BUT I AM HAPPY THAT I AM ALSO NOT THE ONE WHO I USED TO BE"